With so many people struggling and others having people close to them pass, maybe this can be of some solace...The whole field of 'approaching difficult topics, piecing things out enough to begin to process the array of feelings and beliefs, figuring out who can help with what and ways to allow for making plans to make it through challenges over a span of time...are all important skills and needs to address.
I hope more people are finding help to prevent 'downward spirals' of despair and difficulty.